I have been challenged recently to whether my relationship with God looks like a divine romance…
Even my marriage with Matt – are we as creative in our romantic gestures as we were when we first started dating?
We don’t really celebrate Valentines Day, as i like to think that we can celebrate romance all year round – but do we? but actually since becoming a mum, my love language has shifted, who wouldn’t want to receive a gift for the sake of it, so might need to chat to matt and let him know…
Also, i don’t like the pressure that Valentines Day puts on singletons. I loved being single, enjoy peops.
Since having Isabella, obviously time is shorter together. You are no longer a two but a three. Children are a reward from God and we are so blessed to have Issy, but it does take a little while to catch up with the shift that has happened. Date night has to be a priority in the week. Who’s with me!?
On our wedding day, instead of having one guestbook, we had a little book on each table with a title – one was titled “Ideas for a cheap date night…” Picnics seem to feature a lot, and i love the one from my mum ” wait until mum and dad are away, put a bottle in the fridge and jump in the hot tub” – love them.
With Issy though, you can’t just “jump in” you have to have a babysitter, and i’m currently still feeding her myself – she won’t take the bottle! I have a deadline of the 29th March, as i really want to go to the Captivated Conference, and i’m not being hard on myself, today was the first day that i tried, but yeah, she really didn’t like it! But anyway, you have to work harder to get a date night.
I can’t remember where the quote is from, but Matt said it to me a while back, “if you do the things that you did when you first met, your marriage will be great” – something along those lines anyway.
(just started dating – chilling on brighton beach looking at the stars)
LOVE: It’s such a beautiful word, but we totally over use it. I tell Matt every day that I love him, but i also say, I love battemburg! The greek have twelve or thirteen different meanings/usage for the word LOVE. I love that.
I believe we were created to love. Created to be in a relationship with LOVE – Jesus. The very picture of Love. He is love. And i believe that Jesus fills me up with love so that i can love matt and my family better. Firstly i am a daughter of god, secondly a wife to the most amazing husband, and thirdly a mum to the finest daughter. But currently, Issy’s needs are more obvious, so it feels at times, that I’m meeting Issy’s needs over everyone else’s. Which of course is fine, as she needs her mum, but i do feel bad that Matt might be getting an exhausted Beth in the evenings. So on Valentines Day, even though i don’t celebrate it, I’m taking this day to say thank you for my wonderful husband, who even when i’m exhausted, and grumpy, keeps on persuing and loving me with a passionate heart full of grace. Thank you.
And thank you to my amazing heavenly father, who has persued me since the beginning of creation, who never lets me go, who believes in me, who tells me to not worry about anything, but give it all to him, who loves me through all my failings and fears, who teaches me so gently on the attitudes of my heart, who everyday, no matter what, his arms will always be open for me to clamber into…
This song from Misty Edwards, arms wide open, opens up the story of finding love, what is love, “If life comes down to love…”
My question for the day: If you know Jesus, is it a picture of divine romance? Check in today, his arms are wide open. And if you don’t know this love, today, i tell you, he loves you. Happy Valentines Day
Matt and I try to review our finances every few months. I like to know ‘roughly’ how much we’re spending, but I don’t want to be so ‘on it’ that we’re not generous or treat ourselves every now and then, but I’m still learning the balance. We amazingly had a tax rebate from when Matt was freelance on the 1st Jan this year, and it’s amazingly paid off our debt, and even paid for the three months unpaid of the maternity leave (as i’m taking the full year, but only 9 months is paid). So, introducing
Not only is it beautiful, but you enter in your budget for the month, then it breaks it down and gives you a daily spending amount. We don’t tend to use this, as the weekly food shop and filling up on petrol exceeds it, but its interesting to know. Plus it’s the only monthly budget app I’ve found where you can put in your own categories. So we even have a ‘nappy’ category and a ‘date night’ category. It’s just great to see where the money is going!
You can see a daily pie chart, and also a monthly pie chart of how much you have left to spend, and the pie breaks down your spends in each of your chosen categories so you really do know where your money is going. I’ll let you know how we get on, or if we’re eating beans on toast next week! We will be good stewards with our money, we will!
TAP TAP TOINK…
One for Isabella. The illustrations are really cute, it explores shapes, sounds, colour, vehicles. animals, puzzles. Keeps issy entertained for a little while – definitely for the younger babies 0-10 months I’d say.
and finally, ROOKIE…
I love all the wonderful photography apps that are about, including Instagram, Over, but my new have is Rookie AND it’s free – even better. Of course you can buy extra filters, but the free ones are really lovely, and you have more control and can tweak within the filter to make the filters more subtle. It also comes with great symbols and cropping facilities.
What Apps are you enjoying at the moment?
another one for you mums:
So i’ve seen a lot of blog / Facebook posts recently either in the camp of ‘super mum’ or in the ‘ahhh life is hard’ camp. And i wanted to just share some little thoughts, funny moments that have happened to me this week.
The week started with a sore throat, which turned into a full blown cold, which meant that i couldn’t meet up with anyone, go to any baby groups, which meant i was climbing the walls a little bit with issy and missing humans. I thought i’d cheer myself up and go for a walk, take issy to the park and play on the swings – it was fun, but rather cold, and i think that just encouraged issy catching the cold, and when we got back realised that I and the pram had trodden in dog poo – woo! I was such a grump, it’s actually funny. Really had no grace or laughter in me that day. Note to self, look up! Don’t take yourself too seriously.
My week did start with a super mum moment though: on the sunday i had baked 11 pear and nectarine muffins (recipe said 12?), they were delicious. First batch actually tasted of salt and i threw them in the bin, but lets not mention that.
I’ve only just managed to eat my lunch at 3pm today, as Issy refused to have her lunch time nap. The poo stained trainers are still outside, getting soaked by the rain, cos i keep telling myself “i’ll clean them later” but the reality is, i don’t have time to sometimes brush my teeth. I have done 2 loads of washing, and put blusher on, and got the gunky food out the sink ready to do the next load of washing up. I have looked up and asked God to lead me today. I’ve got annoyed when Issy didn’t eat her food. Enjoyed giggles doing the stupidest things to make Issy laugh. I’ve spent too many minutes on my phone, and worried too many thoughts about, will Issy ever take the bottle! There’s still plenty of washing up to be done, (seriously could list so many things i need to do – and things i want to do, like Issy’s first year scrapbook – tell me mums, will i ever get round to doing this!?) But there are too many stories to read, balls to catch, Peppa Pig oinks to be said, bubbles to be blown, and cuddles to be had.
Basically the truth is, i pine for ‘super mum’ days. But the fact of the matter is, i am incapable of doing that. ‘Super mum’ MOMENTS? – maybe, DAYS? – nope.
This wonderful quote from Rob Parson’s ‘The sixty minute mother’ filled me with joy as i swept up the kitchen floor for the third time yesterday… ‘Who defined a successful mum as being the cleverest person at time-management or planning? Some of the best mums I know are the most chaotic – their homes, their hair and their priorities seem a mess. But their kids love them and, so it seems, do all the other kids in the neighbourhood.’
As long as Issy is fed, and reasonably happy at the end of the day – we’ve done a good job. So whether we’ve had super mum moments that have made us feel more human, like having that coffee, getting on top of the laundry pile. Like baking those muffins, or blow drying your hair, OR whether your day has been filled with mess, like dog poo, and food up the walls, and sick down your entire outfit, and you’ve used more dry shampoo this week than is actually good for your hair – it’s all good. Don’t feel guilty if you’re on top of things at the moment (which is ridiculous, but i sometimes do), and don’t feel ashamed if your really just not (which also is ridiculous). Enjoy each day with babba. Issy is 9 months today, it really goes too fast. I know you already know that.
Mums, i salute you! Carry on, as you were… as a mess, or a super mum – big love to you and your babba’s
Happy New Year! I’m a bit late in writing but it’s been a new level new year… i’ll explain (but first let me back track) Christmas was amazing! Issy got super spoilt (might have to put a limit on number of presents next year – especially the grandma’s!) lovely family time, lots of food; laugh out loud charades, especially mother in law miming ‘The Gruffalo” – thank you Annie! But when we came back and Matt went back to work, I found this ‘motherhood’ thing really hard again! Issy was out of her routine, and had definitely grown and changed as she started crawling and climbing just before Christmas. I hadn’t realised how much help it was having lots of family around to cuddle and play with Isabella. This week alone with Isabella i found really challenging – she seemed bored and more frustrated at home – going from 3 naps to 2 naps, and on top of all this… teething (which is just the most horrible thing ever!) Anyhoo, a piece of revelation from my wonderful husband really set me free from this internal angst i was experiencing, and as i have shared with lots of mums already, has helped them, so hope it encourages you…
Motherhood – it’s just like a nintendo game. You get into the rhythm of your baby, and you get to know what he/she likes and you get really good at understanding each cry, but then Isabella grows, changes – this is when you’re through to the next level! it’s all new again. You’ve got to learn the new moves, understand where everything is again, try and understand the cries. At the beginning of a new level it’s really frustrating, you die instantly, but then you quickly get the hang of it and its really enjoyable again… until the beginning of the next level!
This simple analogy, i know will make sense throughout all motherhood, from baby – to toddler – to teenager – and on and on, each level having it’s different challenges, but we will, get the hang of it, enjoy it, and have a little angst at the beginning of each new stage.
Issy has settled into a NEW routine, and is enjoying mummy time again. It took a week to feel human at 6am, but before i know it it will all change again.
But i’ve also been thinking about this analogy and you can apply it to any area. Like when me and matt got married. We had been best friends for ages, but we hadn’t lived together! this was a new level – working out how each other did things. Or when Jesus calls you out of the boat, totally in a new place of faith, totally out of your comfort zone – it starts with real pain, and angst, but then faith grows as you trust god, and that thing he asked you to do, is old news, and now easy – but wait for the next thing. And keep trusting god, every level.
I am so thankful for this new year, this new level. I know that god has given me everything i need to be a mother, a wife, a daughter, and ultimately, a child of his. Yes, i’ll make mistakes, and ‘die instantly’ at every new level, but i know i’ll enjoy it soon!
Happy new year – new level
This will be my last post in 2013. Thank you for embracing me back into the blogging world. This Christmas has been so frantic – very behind with enjoying advent. In October i’m normally itching to start listening to the Home Alone soundtrack, but this year the 1st december crept up on me. I’ve just about got everything done, just need to pack (ahhhhhhh!) and wrap all the presents, which with an 8 month old crawling around, I don’t think will be that easy hmmmm… can i blame isabella for my lateness into joyful yuletide salutations..?
This year has also been absolutely crazy! Isabella joined the Wilson household. The finest gift from God. I thank God for her every day and pray that i will be all that she needs me to be and more. Isabella sums up the year really, but we’ve also enjoyed having lots of friends to stay, glamping at David’s Tent in August, becoming leaders at our local church, enjoying many a walk in the gorgeous Tatton Park, celebrating many wonderful friends’ and family’s engagements, the first of many date nights (thanks grandma and grandpa for babysitting), Pancake Saturdays, meeting lots of lovely mummy’s and their gorgeous babies, and recently a wonderful weekend to Hereford with my two faves: Matt and Issy.
Who knows what next year will bring? But i know that i will look to 2014 knowing that my God is faithful, he goes before me, and every step has been ordained. So whether you know the road ahead in 2014, or it’s a blank canvas, ask God, because he has plans to prosper you. He made you to walk with him, to believe that in every circumstance he is trustworthy and good.
This Christmas, we celebrate more than just a little baby born. We celebrate the coming of our conquering King. Check out this awesome spoken word remembering the reason for the season… Christmas Season. For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)
Merry Christmas from me and isabella x